A bit of a scare
Tuesday night, I realized that I was manic when I couldn't shut my mind off to go to sleep and couldn't stop reading Time magazine. I decided to get additional sleep (if I could sleep) to nip it in the bud. (One treatment for extreme mania is to give the person a strong sleeping pill to make him or her sleep a long time. That's assuming that the sleeping pill makes them sleepy; I know someone who was in my group who was so manic that she stayed awake through three doses of sleeping pills, but that's never happened to me.) Wednesday morning, I was feeling a lot like I did when I had my major psychotic break the year before last: woozy and spacey, feeling like the ground was shaking under me when I took a step, and hearing more voices than the norm (and at home, which is unusual), although they weren't as intense as the year before last. I was really worried then, so I went back to sleep again to try to sleep it off. (Yes, calling my doctor was going to be the next step, but I can guarantee that he would tell me to increase my medication again, which would cause other problems.)
Then I couldn't wake up. When I finally dragged myself out of bed and dragged myself into work, I kept on falling asleep. I was still really spaced out; I spent part of Thursday undoing the work that I did on Wednesday. Finally, late Wednesday night I started feeling better, although I'm still feeling rather tired. My guess is that I caused a minor depression by sleeping too much, but it sure beats the alternative.
I got short nights of sleep both Sunday and Monday night, so I'm wondering if that triggered the mania. Somehow I need to find a way to get more sleep, although I'll still have the problem of fighting my natural circadian rhythm. I also am spending a lot of time exercising (added exercises with dumbbells to my repertoire) and doing other projects, which are important to me. I think that I'm going to stop reading my friends list during the work week. Even though I haven't been commenting much, I have usually been reading it, although sometimesveryfast. Unfortunately, something's got to give.
Then I couldn't wake up. When I finally dragged myself out of bed and dragged myself into work, I kept on falling asleep. I was still really spaced out; I spent part of Thursday undoing the work that I did on Wednesday. Finally, late Wednesday night I started feeling better, although I'm still feeling rather tired. My guess is that I caused a minor depression by sleeping too much, but it sure beats the alternative.
I got short nights of sleep both Sunday and Monday night, so I'm wondering if that triggered the mania. Somehow I need to find a way to get more sleep, although I'll still have the problem of fighting my natural circadian rhythm. I also am spending a lot of time exercising (added exercises with dumbbells to my repertoire) and doing other projects, which are important to me. I think that I'm going to stop reading my friends list during the work week. Even though I haven't been commenting much, I have usually been reading it, although sometimesveryfast. Unfortunately, something's got to give.