On one hand I wish I had a bit of mania.
Lately I'm feeling exhausted or anxious.
When I'm not dragging myself through the
motions, I'm feeling like I'm sitting on a
washing machine while it's on the spin cycle.
(I've had to do this, sit on the machine when
it wasn't bolted down properly, in
case you were wondering :)

Hope you get the right meds for your bipolar.
It must be hell, and very frightening for
you right now.