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days_unfolding ([personal profile] days_unfolding) wrote2002-02-14 04:03 pm

What bipolar meds do

On a Q & A entry on a bipolar site, I found an excellent description of how mood stabilizers affect someone with bipolar disorder:
I have just begun to take 750 mg of Depakote per day (have only been taking the full 750 mg. for a week now), and nothing earth-shattering has happened except 1) I am calmer and much less irritable; 2) I still have emotions but they are subtler, not like being hit in the head with a two by four (I suppose these are more like normal emotions) - I even find myself happy in a relaxed rather than an excited way; 3) This summer, I do not feel better, smarter, etc. than everyone else including my husband, feel that I have married way below me and feel very tempted to have affairs with the men I believe I "deserve". If this keeps up, I imagine I won't feel by late fall or winter that I'm genetically defective, don't deserve the men I was fantasizing about and that killing myself is the rational solution.

The last couple of lines cracked me up. Yes, I know, gallows humor....

What bipolar meds do

[identity profile] tequilasunset.livejournal.com 2002-02-15 07:16 am (UTC)(link)
Well it is funny in a sad sort of way.
One needs a bit of gallows humor to
survive aspects of reality. It certainly
has helped me get through some tough times.

Re: What bipolar meds do

[identity profile] days-unfolding.livejournal.com 2002-02-15 11:42 am (UTC)(link)
I really admire what gallows humor says about people.