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I'm learning
Others tried to jump in with solutions (which she did not want) and I just kept my lips zipped. Finally she finished ranting and left.
Joan called last night clearly looking for me to say 'if you need anything, let me know' but, aha! I have successfully wiped that phrase out of my playbook. I listened and ummed and aha'd at appropriate places and then said goodbye.
Yesterday, Jim (across the hall - not the Jim of Jim and Gail) came out while I was puzzling. He had his TV remote with him. Jim's problem or part of it, is that he cannot express himself. He says all the words correctly - he does not mumble or slur - but the word strings rarely make sense. I explained that there was no joy unless we were in front of his TV so we went there. He really couldn't tell me what he wanted. There was a ribbon on last watched channels that seemed to bother him because of the six, he only wanted 3. "I want to watch the UC one there on the far right." The one on the far right was NBC. He said his buddy who helped him set up was coming over today and he'd show him. I did remove some of the last watched. But never did figure out what he wanted. But he had a car race to watch so when I left he was happy. He never wants much and is always so pleasant.
Martha says that the neighbor care requirement here is greater than the rest of the complex. She thinks it's because we are on this shorten floor. Most floors have 20+ apartments and we have only 10. But, I'm learning how to do it. Lips zipped, hands not raised, response, not volunteer. I think I can do it.
My friend, Steve, told me yesterday that he turns his thermostat down to 65 at night and then up to 72 during the day - every day. Seems like I tried that when I first moved in and it did not work. I was getting heat when I wanted cool. But, hey, Steve's been here for a lotta years. So I tried it last night. Heaven. It was just perfect for sleeping. My bed said 92 out of 100. This morning I turned it to 72 - too hot. So back down to 70 and I opened the door to the patio which thrilled Julio.
The Phillies game is about to start. The Mariners are playing at Williamsport, PA - the home of the little league world series. I might watch some but for sure on mute. I do not approve of baseball games in these silly places like car racing stadiums and little league parks.
No big plans for after the game. Just the usual. I might run a couple of errands and I might save them for next week.

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In lieu of rending garments
But I was raised with stoic internalization of such grief. And so it shall be.
When I was meditating today I realized I was crying and it was because I'd been thinking I should go for a walk. It has been nearly a year and a half since Zoe, Toby and I walked our crushed granite mile and a half around the water. We'd been doing it several times a week and before that when it was only Zoe and me, nearly every day. I'd started thinking of it this morning and realized I could not face the walk. Then I meditated and realized I'd have to.
So I invited Toby and we just got back. He's exhausted but had a wonderful time obviously recognizing the environment and relishing the walk. By the end he was really dragging and looking at me every now and then to point out that he was only 20ish pounds and I could easily carry him. I declined. And we made it.
I've been depressed. Sleeping too much and still tired. For me grief is a hunk of rock in my gut that I just have to chip away at a bit at a time. It is a much more arduous process than rending and gnashing, hence my envy of that system.
But I'm making progress. A bit at a time. Toby and I made some serious progress. I actually think he's been down too, missing the other four legged entity and not even knowing what happened. Less control than we have.
It was nice on the walk. I saw two dogs I knew and a bunch of ones who had not been around last year. With the temp around 80 it was not comfortable for the last half and I didn't even have a fur coat.
Toby is a trouper.
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365 Questions 2025
17. What’s your favorite true story that you enjoy sharing with others? One of them is about the time my younger sister (who was maybe nine or ten at the time) sat on the toilet but a frog had got onto the seat before her.
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Finished watercolor, made bed, took a brief walk, read a little of my current book, cleaned out some spoiled food from the fridge, took out the composting, took out the garbage, talked to mother, read DW correspondence list, watched the latest episode of the Gilded Age, two episodes of Alien Earth, and rented Superman on UHD on Prime.
By the way? I loved the Superman movie. That is far and away the best Superman movie that I've seen to date. I adored it. I may watch parts of it again. (And I've seen all of them. I've also seen all the television series. And most of the cartoons, and animated films. I've also read a few of the comics here and there.)
I'll do a review later, when I've more time to ponder it, and write it. Assuming anyone wants a review? I may do it anyway. I was certainly looking for folks reviews.
Off to bed.
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I've Had It with Today
Left a message at the boarding place. They aren't great about returning their messages though, so I might need to call back again later. I also sent an email.
I am just sitting here, staring out into space. I should get moving.
Everything that I read on Google says that to not board dogs with active Giardia infections. I’m wondering if the rest of my critters should be tested for it.
I already posted that the boarding place won't take Gracie, so I can't go to Sardinia. I'm trying to figure out what my next move will be after everyone is treated. I really would like some beach time somewhere. I'm eying a cruise to Bermuda that leaves from New York City, so I could add some time in New York also. It's fairly inexpensive, even with a single supplement. It's on a cruise line that I've never been on (Norwegian). Another possibility would be to go to St. Lucia.
I need to cancel my bookings, but I'll wait until after my nap. I need to let this sink in. Napped.
Gracie rolled in the grass for the first time. She liked it!
Oliver was cuddling on my lap, and Bella and Gracie jumped on my lap and bugged him. He smacked Bella. They make me laugh.
Okay, I canceled everything. The airplane ticket was not refundable "although I should be able to get the taxes back". One hotel was not refundable. The other one was. So I'm out of pocket for a lot. Sigh.
I don't want to run errands today. In fact, I want to take another nap. There also is a heat advisory today (95F/35C). So I'll stay in. Napped.
I’m feeling kind of depressed, which is not surprising because I was looking forward to the trip. I’m feeling like watching TV after I feed all of us.
Oh fuck. I knew that the bedroom TV had fallen, but I hadn’t turned it on. It’s ruined. I need to doublecheck the dates for the electronics recycling.
I have had it with today. I think that I’ll just order a new TV and go to bed.
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one down, one ?
Joan did not spend the night at the hospital. But she did not come to elbow coffee. Her grandson and grand-daughter-law and her son have all arrived today. No word on that. But, I am not on the hook there, either.
Dick (of Jan and Dick) has found out that instead of an outpatient procedure to work on his heart, he now needs a bypass or stent or something, they haven't decided, and has been told to be careful about exercise.
Jim got a paper cut from his airline luggage tag at the airport last week and, thanks to blood thinners, nearly bled out standing in the TSA line.
Elbow Coffee was interesting today - at least no one bitched about the weather.
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When I walk I'm usually faster than all the other walkers except for one old man (he's in his 80s) who I can barely keep up with when I run, let alone when I walk, but today there was a woman doing speed walking for the whole course and getting further and further ahead of me as we went. (She also eventually passed the older man.) I spoke to her afterwards and it turns out she is coming back from a hip replacement, working her way back to running. I was extremely impressed with her walking speed, but have no hope of ever being that fast myself.
I'm still feeling tired, but at least the sun has come out and it's not so oppressive-looking outside.
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Bonny is a fast learner
It's one thing to get a good barber but it's the creme dela creme to get one that will always be on the look out for when a trim is needed.
I got a call yesterday from a woman who lives on the other side of the complex. Their son is married to Joan's daughter. She called to tell me that Joan was in the hospital. "Her daughter's with her but she wanted me to call you because she didn't see anyone else on the hall to tell when she was leaving."
I get that. Particularly when I head out for Bellevue or some other place and am going to be gone longer than 30 minutes, I always think I need someone back here, on the hall, to know. No reason but I always think that. So I get it.
Joan has many many problems but lately, it's her back. It doesn't help that she is 92. But she has very active family and she has every single on of her marbles. Nothing to be done by us but I went to tell Bonny and she and I went into Joan's apartment to make sure all was fine. It was. Bonny also told me that John had his first massive drug treatment and it went fine.
10 minutes later she was in my apartment to tell me that 'fine' was apparently short lived and that now he was in the same hospital as Joan.
Elbow Coffee will be sparsely attended this morning. Jack is on a cruise and Jim and Gail are off somewhere again.
I love my new coffee table. I have a power brick and charging cables that I use for computers, watch, cat toys, phone. And I have all my knitting stuff. I finally decided that the charging stuff needs to go into the table. I have two cables, then, that need to come out. So last night I grabbed my handy dandy drill and the biggest drill bit I have and dug out a hole. It was a lot harder than I expected but I managed to get a slot exactly the right size.
I did trip over the power cable twice so I looked into a cable cover. My first try was a total fail - going back to Amazon. But then, I thought, why not a throw rug?! Like the one I have on the other side of the room?? PERFECT and they are on sale. It will be here Monday. So I just need to be extra careful til then.
And speaking of charging, I see that Julio's favorite toy needs more juice.
My two games are on at the same time again today. Yesterday, they kept pulling ahead and then falling behind, both of them. So I'd keep the sound on the one that was behind until they pulled ahead and then mute it when they got the needed runs and listen to the other game. It worked out fine.
Martha and Bonny both wanted mini monsters in school colors. I complied.

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Blue World: And Other Stories by Robert McCammon

From the battlefields of a Vietnam veteran's memory to an old-time movie hero's search for a serial killer, from Halloween in a special town--where the rules of trick-or-treat are written in blood--to a Texas road where a wrong turn leads to a nest of evil, horror master McCammon is at his terrifying best in this collection of stories.
I was rather disappointed with this collection. While there are some stories maybe worth reading (He’ll Come Knocking at Your Door comes to mind,) they’re not the majority.
There were those like Pin, that I thought was just weird, or I Scream Man, which wasn’t much better. Even Make Up, which is a side story to They Thirst didn’t do it for me. The rest were sort of in between. Not terrible, but note worthy, either.
I have to admit to not being a huge fan of short stories, but I’d come to expect more from McCammon. Because I have read some short stories that I actually really enjoyed. Unfortunately, none were in this book.

( Mount TBR 2025 Book Links 1-35 )
36. The Regulators by Richard Bachman (Pseudonym), Stephen King
37. Islands of Abandonment: Nature Rebounding in the Post-Human Landscape by Cal Flyn
38. The Nun's Story by Kathryn Hulme
39. The Bones Beneath My Skin by T.J. Klune
40. They Thirst by Robert McCammon
41. Blue World: And Other Stories by Robert McCammon


AUG – Side, World, Sound, Trial, Word, Hotel, Now, Say
Blue World by Robert R. McCammon
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Saturday
They are good people. Not frivolous. Down to earth. As weird as anyone else but tolerable.
She's a vegan for physical reasons. Fibromyalgia kind of stuff that disappeared entirely when she changed her diet. No philosophical contingent in her diet, no morality, just practical.
So we're going to a restaurant that has enough on the menu for her. It is a middle of the road place that has steak and vegitarian side by side.
It will be a bit tiring to be sociable but both of them are fairly introverted too so we'll all be tired after an hour or so.
And the rest of the day will be quiet. We've got an Austin FC soccer game tonight. The team is actually looking pretty good, enough that I expect them to win now rather than expecting them to lose. It should be a good match.
Dana's car battery died and I replaced it yesterday. I'll probably take her car to the shop to be sure it is not the alternator. I need to get my oil changed and a good look around on my Smart Car. And I need to get the battery disconnected long enough to reset the computer. It is so hard to get to the positive terminal on a Smart Car that I'll take it to the shop. I did it once before but it is just really difficult to reach.
I've got a guy that knows what he's doing with Smart Cars and it a great guy so it is only time without the car that is an issue. Now I don't have to drive to and from the Ranch it is much easier.
So we'll play with cars hoping that neither has a big problem. But I'd rather pay now to keep them up than wait for a break down. And now I own one of those battery power packs if/when I need a jump. Always wanted one.
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Crappity Crap
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Friday is just wandering by...
Question a Day Meme : August
( days 8-15 )
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Facebook and other social media platforms - keep throwing Buffy the Vampire Slayer Revival articles at me. They keep calling it the Buffy Reboot, and people keep stating - "it's not a reboot". And then other people state: "no, it is a reboot, the other is a remake". Sigh. Keep in mind this is the same fandom that fought over what a soul meant, and whether vampires had breath. They also were still fighting over the shanshu and were worried the Buffy Revival would mess with their precious Angel. (No, the writers of the Buffy Revival couldn't care less about Angel. Gellar didn't care about Angel. I doubt she's ever watched it. ) That said? If they decide to bring back Spike or Angel - they will either have to be human (and there are many ways for that to happen outside of a shanshu, all you need is an imagination - I could do it, easy), or be insanely aged vampires (which is also possible), because both actors have definitely aged and they look their age.
Note, what I've learned from various articles thrown at me about the Buffy Revival?
It has an IMBD page now.
Buffy the Vampire Slayer: New Sunnydale appears to be the working title.
Description? Follows Buffy Summers as she trains a new vampire slayer, to fight the forces of evil.
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Still rewatching S3, although debating skipping a few episodes and jumping to S4. I really don't like the Faith/Mayor main plot arc for some reason or other. I know I'm in the minority. Most people adore it for some reason or other.
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Off to bed. Hopefully to sleep and dream of sheep...or ponies.

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Crap (So to Speak). Giardia
I think that I want a used Toyota RAV4 plug-in hybrid. They're a little more expensive than the cars at which I was looking, but people really like them. I found one that I like, but I'll start more seriously looking after I get back from Sardinia.
I didn’t get up early but slept until a little after 7 AM. I didn’t do laundry, so I’ll have to shower at lunchtime and go to the bank in the afternoon. I’m sitting for a moment and waking up. I’m groggy. Got the laundry going.
I’m concerned that the Italian school hasn’t sent me the link to pay for the course by credit card. I sent them an email, but have heard nothing from them.
I really want to take a nap at lunch, but I should shower so that I can go get the Euros from the bank. My shower was nice. Gracie was fascinated by my naked bod o_o.
I copied a list of things to do in Cagliari. And they have Uber there, although it partners with taxis.
I think that I'm going to stay home tonight. I need to water the plants, and I'm feeling a little dizzy.
Called the garage guy and left a message. I hope that I won't have to follow up with him the whole time.
I changed my password at work because It was going to expire while I'm gone, and I've been mopping up errors because of it. I think that I've got everything?
Hmm. I was going to take Gracie out at 3 PM, and it's 2:45, and she's fast asleep upstairs with me. She got up, and I took them out.
Picked up my Euros. They gave me a nice mix of bills, and I have a lot of Euro and smaller coins from last time.
I had pondered becoming a locksmith as a retirement job, but all the schools and apprenticeships are in Chicago. There sure is a shortage of locksmiths here though.
Crap. Gracie has Giardia. I'm trying to find out how that will impact her boarding, but the vet's office is closed now. I had heard that it was contagious. The vet is now closed on the weekends. This will be a cliffhanger. I'm going to proceed as if the trip will happen as planned. The vet said to talk to the boarding place about it, so I'm going to get up early tomorrow morning to call.
It is so freaking humid out. I had sweat pouring into my eyes (which stung) when I took the dogs out.
Got some stuff done. I want to go to sleep early so that I will get up early and call the boarding place.
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We're having a bit of a run on our money
I managed to drop about 25 or so pounds with Noom but hit a plateau and never went below 210 which it, by most accounts, obese. I worry about it occasionally but really notice when I play pickleball. I'm an inverted weeble. So I saw a way to kill to birds with one stone and went out to Hims to see what it would take to get me some of the magic elixir. Turns out to be not too expensive and worth it if I can beat the odds and wean myself back off after reaching my goal. But it was not free. To get a decent deal you have to pay for six months up front. I did and got the stuff and used it. The first week is basically just to tell your body you are going to have some new drugs being pumped through and to get used to it. No side effects so I guess I'm good.
But not free. So there's that and the vet and the crematorium and the ticket to Massachusetts in October and the wedding sports coat and the wedding dress (that one's not for me) and just last night a dead car battery that I replaced today.
I'm hoping the car battery doesn't presage a run of other things breaking as happened a year or so ago.
I'd just gotten through replacing the computer and router and printer.
Enough. We just need to cruise for a bit without any surprises and build up the investment account again. I had to pull money from it yesterday and I need to reverse the flow of that. Build it back up again.
But, first, a nap. Pickleball and all this finance stuff making me sleepy.
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I must have "slept funny" last night, because I woke up an hour or two after I had gone to sleep and found that I had somehow done something to my lower back. It was very painful to get out of bed and to walk, but I managed to find the cane I had bought ten years or so ago when I was last having back problems, and put it beside the bed ready for use next time I had to get up. I had to be careful how I arranged my body for sleeping as some positions were more painful than others, and I think I was a bit restless for most of the night because I wasn't completely comfortable. However, by morning it wasn't so bad and I didn't really need the cane to get around. I managed to go for a walk, and after I'd been walking for a while my back felt reasonably good. (My pharmacist daughter told me that this is a result of the endorphins produced by exercise.) It's still slightly painful now, but it's much better than it was during the night.
I've got a loaf of sourdough bread dough rising; I'll be keeping a close eye on it to make sure it doesn't over-rise. It's too easy for that to happen in warmer weather.
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365 Questions 2025
13. What is your saddest memory? Losing S.
14. What would you like to change? The president of the US and the social and political forces that allowed the travesty of his presidency.
15. How many people do you love? Many family members and friends.
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Rainy Day off
So, I'm reading this book that I'm not that into but can't quite find the spot to abandon. It's about two grown sons and their mother. The mother character has - in the first half of the book - been drawn as very old and so fairly demented and failing in health of body, mind and spirit. Then last night, the author finally mentions her age - SIXTY FUCKING TWO!!! Holy crap. Seriously. Insulting. I'm pissed. But, still reading, of course.
But, people, 62 is not old. Late middle age, maybe, but not old at all.
I love my new coffee table and the uncluttered look it provides. And the pop up bit is wonderful. I moved the massive knitting bag off the couch in yet more uncluttering. This morning, I learned that the cats both appear to approve. And there is still room for me!

I got an email last night from my guy at Crate and Barrel saying my new couch cushion was underway and including the invoice again but this time it said delivery ETA mid-September.
It's a rainy day and later on, we're supposed to have REAL rain. Now, it's just wet and misty.
I might do laundry. I might not.
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Really Wiped Out
I did get up early, but I’m thinking of going back to sleep. I’m so tired. Woke up again at 7 AM.
Took Gracie to the vet. They said that she seemed healthy. They looked at her stool sample, and the worms that were there before are gone, except for one ambiguous thing that they wanted the parasitologist to check. They will call with the results. They gave me more worm medicine just in case. Gracie was barking at the door to the lobby while they were looking at the stool sample. The vet came back and said, "I heard you barking, girlfriend," and I said, "The whole world heard her barking!" (Gracie's barks are shrill and piercing.) Gracie is still growing, so we don't know how big she'll get.
Took a nap over lunch and overslept for an hour. Oops. I'm still freaking tired.
I think that I'm going to stay home tonight and get some stuff done around here. And get to bed early!
UPS keeps leaving my neighbor's packages at my house. I learned why they put up an American flag; he just became a citizen! I congratulated him.
Oh! My Euros are in at the bank. I'll go tomorrow.
My front door is acting weird. The bolt on the doorknob locks and won't unlock until I open it from outside. I guess that I need a locksmith. Oh. My key is a copy of the original key, and maybe that's why it won't open the lock.
I had a tough time getting Oliver and Lily to come up from the basement to eat. Lily worked out a clever route to get around the dogs though. Both dogs are being rambunctious.
I need to water the outdoor plants. No, I'm going to do that tomorrow morning. I am so freaking tired, so I'm going to start laundry and go to bed really early.