days_unfolding

On a Q & A entry on a bipolar site, I found an excellent description of how mood stabilizers affect someone with bipolar disorder:

I have just begun to take 750 mg of Depakote per day (have only been taking the full 750 mg. for a week now), and nothing earth-shattering has happened except 1) I am calmer and much less irritable; 2) I still have emotions but they are subtler, not like being hit in the head with a two by four (I suppose these are more like normal emotions) - I even find myself happy in a relaxed rather than an excited way; 3) This summer, I do not feel better, smarter, etc. than everyone else including my husband, feel that I have married way below me and feel very tempted to have affairs with the men I believe I "deserve". If this keeps up, I imagine I won't feel by late fall or winter that I'm genetically defective, don't deserve the men I was fantasizing about and that killing myself is the rational solution.

The last couple of lines cracked me up. Yes, I know, gallows humor....