Back in the thick of things
Feb. 21st, 2002 12:16 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
days_unfoldingSomething's got to give at work too.
Not the job itself. It still looks like a good mix of the familiar and challenge. The workload looks sane.
Before I left, there was a lot of contention over some ill-considered stuff that I wrote when I was manic. I knew that coming back would be awkward.
However, I didn't expect it to be worse than when I left.
Leaving might have been a mistake because I left what was left of my reputation in the hands of those who want to tear it down (for whatever reason). When I left, I didn't expect to come back. Ever. Surprise....I have a guess as to who is keeping this issue alive, but it's only a guess. If I'm correct, we have a mutual friend.
My current manager talked to some of the managers with whom I previously worked. I don't understand why they told him that he should hire me if my presence was going to be a big problem. I won't take responsibility for the hiring decision.
I'm not sure how I want to play all this. During my break, I did a lot of reading and thinking about where my responsibilities lie, given that I have a disorder that can affect how I process information and how I respond. I agree with the statement that if I have a disorder that leads to lack of control, my responsibility is to keep the disorder under control (as much as is humanly possible). And that's what I'm doing with the meds and the doctor appointments, etc. etc. The only exception is that I haven't been getting quite enough sleep, and I should log off and get some sleep.
Beyond that, I can't change the past, only the future.
I guess that I should just sit tight and see what happens.
Not the job itself. It still looks like a good mix of the familiar and challenge. The workload looks sane.
Before I left, there was a lot of contention over some ill-considered stuff that I wrote when I was manic. I knew that coming back would be awkward.
However, I didn't expect it to be worse than when I left.
Leaving might have been a mistake because I left what was left of my reputation in the hands of those who want to tear it down (for whatever reason). When I left, I didn't expect to come back. Ever. Surprise....I have a guess as to who is keeping this issue alive, but it's only a guess. If I'm correct, we have a mutual friend.
My current manager talked to some of the managers with whom I previously worked. I don't understand why they told him that he should hire me if my presence was going to be a big problem. I won't take responsibility for the hiring decision.
I'm not sure how I want to play all this. During my break, I did a lot of reading and thinking about where my responsibilities lie, given that I have a disorder that can affect how I process information and how I respond. I agree with the statement that if I have a disorder that leads to lack of control, my responsibility is to keep the disorder under control (as much as is humanly possible). And that's what I'm doing with the meds and the doctor appointments, etc. etc. The only exception is that I haven't been getting quite enough sleep, and I should log off and get some sleep.
Beyond that, I can't change the past, only the future.
I guess that I should just sit tight and see what happens.
