I'm Not Sure That I Can Handle This World Either

[days_unfolding]

Still really tired. I called my Mom's finance people, but they haven't called me back yet. I also called the people with my CPAP and told them that I was still out of town.

I mailed the bills. I need to figure out how I can stop Mom's mail when I'm gone next week. I went and got Mom's stuff from the nursing home. It was a lot of stuff. Then I went to see Mom. She's no longer talking about how she's going to die, but she says that she can't handle this world. She wants to talk to Ken, who is a minister.

I'm in my usual post-Mom "all I want to do is go to sleep" mode. I have stuff to do, but I guess that I'll get up early.

Comments

[cordjostler]

I'm sorry to hear about your mom. I remember when one of my grandmothers was going through that phase too. We got a lot of "I'm waiting for an angel to come through the patio door and take me to heaven." She was already pretty depressed and had fallen and broken her sternum. It's a hard time, but it very kind of you to take care of her.

[iddewes]

I hope Ken will be able to speak to her and ease her mind somewhat.
When my mother had terminal cancer and couldn't walk anymore she kept saying she hoped she would die soon too :( I totally understood why, it definitely wasn't just pain, she was on a lot of morphine for that, but she hated being dependent and not being able to move around. It was upsetting for my sister and me though to know she was going to be gone soon. :( I hope you are holding up ok.