Queen for a breakfast

[days_unfolding]

I had planned to work from home, but the construction workers were replacing the weather stripping around my windows. I decided to eat breakfast out before I came in. When I got to the fast food place, it was 10:37, and breakfast ended at 10:30. I went over to the seriously cool guy who's the regular daytime manager to ask if I could still have breakfast, and before I could say anything, he called out my breakfast order to the workers in the kitchen. I said, "I thought that it might be too late for breakfast," and he said, "Oh no. Not for you."

That was really, really nice. That was one of the most enjoyable breakfasts that I've ever had.

It almost compensated for not working from home. I seriously need some solitude, which is hard to come by at the lab. Besides the usual controversies, I know that I've been making funny faces at people. Because my eyes sometimes go out of focus, I'll stare or squint at people trying to bring them back into focus. Sometimes I feel like I'm about to drool or am drooling. (Both side effects courtesy of, yes, Risperdal.) Sometimes I can't remember who people are even though I know I know them. Etc. etc. etc. It would be really nice to work alone with my cat and not have to worry about any of this. I really do hope that the construction workers really do finish this week.

Speaking of Risperdal, it definitely is implicated in the toothache syndrome because the toothaches went away now that I lowered the dose. It looks like now I'm at my maximum dose, as I am with the mood stabilizers. Not good. The mood stabilizers, at least, probably are fixable if I take a medical leave, but I can't right now. Don't know if the anti-psychotic drugs are fixable. My doctor didn't want me to take Zyprexa because it frequently causes a weight gain of 30 + pounds and Seroquel because it can cause heart problems and my heart already skips beats. Clozapine, of course, can kill you. That covers all the newer antipsychotic drugs, and giving me the older antipsychotic drugs (such as Haldol) would be like hitting the proverbial fly with a sledgehammer.

Anyway, the cat shelter got back to me, and I have an appointment on Friday afternoon. I'm really looking forward to it.

Comments

[sunshine-two.livejournal.com]

Can't imagine what you're enduring these days (although your journal does explain it). I'm envious of your personal strength.

[days-unfolding.livejournal.com]

Hmmm. Thanks for the compliment, but a lot of the time, I think "strength" equates to "not having much choice in the matter". At least I don't feel very strong at all. I feel like a strong person wouldn't be bitching and moaning so much about it, but to some extent, the only way that I know how to deal with it is to rail against it.

[bandicoot.livejournal.com]

Toothaches are funny. I see them as early warning signs of systemic problems like infections, because that's where I first notice something wrong. I wonder why the nerves there seem more sensitive.

[days-unfolding.livejournal.com]

The only other time that I can think of when I got a toothache was when I was working as a contractor for the company at which I now work. We had this big formal status meeting once a month. Every month, like clockwork, I got a toothache right before the status meeting -;)

The Risperdal seemed to make the nerves several times more sensitive. For a while, I was wondering if I had chipped enamel or something like that.