Exit, Pursued by a Bear

One of my meds, Zyprexa, can trigger "metabolic syndrome," including high cholesterol, and it has done so in me. My doctor wanted to put me on statins, but they can trigger memory problems, and I already have enough memory problems, so I said, "No dice". Then they decided to give me niacin. The doctor told me to take it at night, but that triggered insomnia, so I switched to taking it in the morning. I had been tolerating it well, until yesterday, when it triggered mania. I kept on doing things in the wrong order, spacing out and losing time, and wasn't able to read because I'd read a only a couple of sentences, and then my mind would wander. So I've been carboloading yesterday and today to slow myself down, and didn't take the dose of niacin today. I feel pretty well right now, although I did forget to unlock the second lock on my back door when I came in. I suppose that I should try the niacin again to see what happens, and then call my doctor, but I'm feeling fiercely reluctant to take it again.

I have to admit to having a little pity party for myself because I get to deal with all the normal problems that everyone has to deal with, plus this type of crap on top of it. How am I supposed to do my job if I don't know how I'm going to feel from day to day? But I'm feeling good right now, and I was able to set the A/C to the perfect temperature, so I'm enjoying the feeling. I'm a little frustrated because there was stuff that I wanted to get done outside of work this week, but I think that I should just read a little and go to bed. (I just yawned. That's a good sign.)