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Rebel Rebel
Jun. 5th, 2016 01:29 amWhen I first started working with the life coach, he asked me to take a quiz to find out how I met expectations. An Upholder meets external and internal expectations. A Questioner meets internal, but not external, expectations. An Obliger meets external, but not internal, expectations. A Rebel meets neither external not internal expectations.
I got Rebel. The not meeting internal expectations is the reason I hired the life coach, so that wasn't a surprise. But whether I meet external expectations depends on the situation. When I was a tech writer, I worked extreme hours to keep from letting anyone else down. Since my illness, I really struggle to keep myself motivated and get things done, but I think that they would be shocked to hear that at work because I work hard and get a lot done. And I enjoy my job, which helps.
I'm learning that sometimes I just have to make myself do things to get things done. Sometimes I get on a roll, which is great, but tonight, I had to force myself to spend an hour working on the kitchen. And I really had to force myself because I couldn't have felt less motivated. But I did it.
I'm going to stay home tomorrow and continue to work on it. I had thought about going to a state park near Bloomington that I'd like to check out. It has a lake, including a beach for swimming, picnic tables, and hiking trails. As well, one of my goals is to get out in nature more. However, I think that you need to be a little obsessive to really get things done. What I really should do is use goofing off at the park as a reward for getting the kitchen organized. (I'm making progress!)
I got Rebel. The not meeting internal expectations is the reason I hired the life coach, so that wasn't a surprise. But whether I meet external expectations depends on the situation. When I was a tech writer, I worked extreme hours to keep from letting anyone else down. Since my illness, I really struggle to keep myself motivated and get things done, but I think that they would be shocked to hear that at work because I work hard and get a lot done. And I enjoy my job, which helps.
I'm learning that sometimes I just have to make myself do things to get things done. Sometimes I get on a roll, which is great, but tonight, I had to force myself to spend an hour working on the kitchen. And I really had to force myself because I couldn't have felt less motivated. But I did it.
I'm going to stay home tomorrow and continue to work on it. I had thought about going to a state park near Bloomington that I'd like to check out. It has a lake, including a beach for swimming, picnic tables, and hiking trails. As well, one of my goals is to get out in nature more. However, I think that you need to be a little obsessive to really get things done. What I really should do is use goofing off at the park as a reward for getting the kitchen organized. (I'm making progress!)
