Personal Assistant?

I'm thinking that I really need help in order to get my life together. I'm the only one who can get this place organized, but if I could get some help, it would free me up to work on getting organized. If the pet sitter would be interested in cleaning and maybe running some light errands, that would be great. (And I trust her. She's a niece of a colleague/friend.) Otherwise, I saw a profile of someone in the area who does cleaning, errand running, and pet sitting. Most charge $10 an hour (the advantage of living in a cheap area). I think that I could do that, even though I'm really tight on cash. I'll talk to the pet sitter and go from there.

I think that it'll take me a long time to get out from under otherwise.

Shaky

I was feeling shaky and dizzy, probably from the coffee I drank earlier plus hunger, so I ate a slice of pizza. It seems to be helping somewhat.

There's still a lot of ice out there, although it doesn't seem like much more accumulated today. The apartment maintenance is finally cleaning the sidewalks and parking lot, which is good because I need to take garbage out and have been waiting because ot the ice.

Mimi and Zara are keeping a close eye on me. I wonder what they think that I'm going to do.

Maybe I'll have another slice of pizza....

Yep

We're getting all the nasty winter weather in three days. First we had freezing rain and ice. Tonight, it snowed (although that helped with traction getting to the dumpster, so it wasn't all bad). Now we're getting the polar vortex and subzero wind chill. Sheesh.

Motivation

I've gotten on a roll on cleaning and organizing the kitchen. I'm not done, but I managed to make inroads on it in not a lot of time. I started out using the Pomodoro Technique (working hard for 25 minutes, and then taking a break), but once I got on a roll, I stopped needing it.

I have to remember that things seem more overwhelming to me than they are. There are symptoms called the negative symptoms of schizophrenia, which have to do with lack of motivation, lack of affect, etc. I do know that the first symptom of my illness was that a job that I did well in and liked became overwhelming to me. And, in fact, I read an article that said that people with negative symptoms think that tasks will take more effort than they really take. So that's probably part of the problem. I also suffer from depression, which is kind of a double-whammy. Especially in the winter, I'm pretty well paralyzed without medications.

The apartment maintenance guys tried to plow the parking lot, but didn't get the ice up. I've made a trip out there to throw some stuff out, and I made it, but it was slow going. Zara got through the gate when I last went outside. I managed to get in without letting her out, telling her sharply to "back off," but that shook me a little. Then I decided to take a dinner break.