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days_unfoldingI fell in love with a song on one of my classical guitar CDs (John Williams' rendition of the adagio from Concierto de Aranjuez for those to whom that might mean something). I've been playing it incessantly, listening to it cranked up on headphones*, and carrying it with me everywhere. It's funny; when I don't feel like or can't sing and am listening to a song that I sing, I'll subvocalize and run through the emotions of the song. I'm finding myself doing something very similar with this song, but there's nowhere for the emotion to go. Anyway, I'm well and duly motivated to start my guitar lessons, which start next Wednesday.
Now I need to figure out how to manage my time. One big question is whether I want to take piano lessons or not. I was talking to Erik about the keyboard, and his comment was "you can accompany yourself singing!" Well, yeah, that would be nice. I also have a real yen to learn rock/honky tonk piano. (Specifically, I have a yen to learn to play "Great Balls of Fire". Don't ask me why. Don't ask me about the mix between it and classical guitar either. What can I say; I like music.) I could see the piano lesson being the high point of my week. There's a piano teacher that intrigues me at the same place as my guitar lessons. The nice thing is that the place is just down the street from work and home.
But singing practice is important too. My voice has definitely taken some damage; the question is whether it's fixable. I might need to consult with a professional, but I want to see what I can do on my own first. I have an enormous amount of work ahead of me.
And I also want to start a meditation practice and writing practice. If I did everything that I wanted to do, it would take about 5 hours a day. And I still need to keep working on the place. (In fact, I'm more motivated now that I have a nice "music corner". I really want this place to become my study, my studio, my sanctuary.)
So I don't know what to do. Erik said that if these things are important to me, I'll find the time. My mom asked if I could bring in things one thing at a time (sensible). I know that I need to set priorities, but the problem is that these are all things that are important to me! (Hmm, I think that I've just decided to reacquaint myself with the keyboard and reading music on my own; I don't need a teacher for that. Maybe I should plan to take piano lessons in the spring.)
And I've been putting in a fair amount of overtime at work. We're in a real mess--we're certain that we're going to miss a date, and that deliverable still has work items that are uncovered. I'm trying to find a balance between supporting the team and guarding my health. (Erik's spontaneous response to my description of the situation is "don't get sick!" If I do work myself sick, my ex-husband will be on everyone's back as well as I.) If I did try to be a hero, if would make a tremendous difference, but I can't do it. However, I've never liked people who waltz out after 8 hours when everyone else is working tons of overtime. I have been getting dangerously tired lately.
* Note to Adrienne: just because a classical song is quiet, doesn't mean that it's going to stay quiet. While the volume of a classical guitar is fairly static, Williams frequently has an orchestra backing him. Oops. Ouch -;)
Now I need to figure out how to manage my time. One big question is whether I want to take piano lessons or not. I was talking to Erik about the keyboard, and his comment was "you can accompany yourself singing!" Well, yeah, that would be nice. I also have a real yen to learn rock/honky tonk piano. (Specifically, I have a yen to learn to play "Great Balls of Fire". Don't ask me why. Don't ask me about the mix between it and classical guitar either. What can I say; I like music.) I could see the piano lesson being the high point of my week. There's a piano teacher that intrigues me at the same place as my guitar lessons. The nice thing is that the place is just down the street from work and home.
But singing practice is important too. My voice has definitely taken some damage; the question is whether it's fixable. I might need to consult with a professional, but I want to see what I can do on my own first. I have an enormous amount of work ahead of me.
And I also want to start a meditation practice and writing practice. If I did everything that I wanted to do, it would take about 5 hours a day. And I still need to keep working on the place. (In fact, I'm more motivated now that I have a nice "music corner". I really want this place to become my study, my studio, my sanctuary.)
So I don't know what to do. Erik said that if these things are important to me, I'll find the time. My mom asked if I could bring in things one thing at a time (sensible). I know that I need to set priorities, but the problem is that these are all things that are important to me! (Hmm, I think that I've just decided to reacquaint myself with the keyboard and reading music on my own; I don't need a teacher for that. Maybe I should plan to take piano lessons in the spring.)
And I've been putting in a fair amount of overtime at work. We're in a real mess--we're certain that we're going to miss a date, and that deliverable still has work items that are uncovered. I'm trying to find a balance between supporting the team and guarding my health. (Erik's spontaneous response to my description of the situation is "don't get sick!" If I do work myself sick, my ex-husband will be on everyone's back as well as I.) If I did try to be a hero, if would make a tremendous difference, but I can't do it. However, I've never liked people who waltz out after 8 hours when everyone else is working tons of overtime. I have been getting dangerously tired lately.
* Note to Adrienne: just because a classical song is quiet, doesn't mean that it's going to stay quiet. While the volume of a classical guitar is fairly static, Williams frequently has an orchestra backing him. Oops. Ouch -;)
