Kind of a Depressing Day

[days_unfolding]

Whoever had been eating the cat food that I left out on the deck stopped eating it as of Saturday. I called Animal Control (they were closed Mon. - Wed.), and she wasn't brought in. So no more cute kitty :( I hope that she's okay. I tried, I really did.

In some ways that will help though because it would be helpful to know if I'm going to move to Lincoln before considering another pet. Bloomington has a limit on three cats or dogs in a household, and I don't know if a service dog would count towards that limit or not. I don't know what's more important: Harlee's need for a companion (and she won't be around forever, unfortunately) or my possible need for a service dog to get me out of bed in the morning. Lincoln doesn't appear to have any limit on pets (and the other librarian has three cats and a dog, I think).

I just feel like holing up in Lincoln and never leaving...which would be bad for my career, but might be good for me. I need some downtime and stability.

I complained to my doctor on Monday about oversleeping because of the meds, and he cut the dose of my antidepressant in half. Well, now I feel like curling up in a ball and crying. I'll give it through the weekend in case that I am feeling withdrawal symptoms, but this doesn't bode well. Crap. I'm getting tired of dealing with this type of thing.

Anyone have any sort of upbeat news?

And now I have the hiccups....Oy.

Comments

[ravengirl.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry. I understand some of this and, unfortunately, it does take time and trouble and painfulness to get to the right balance of meds. It's a pain in the butt, but it pays off eventually. I've never heard of service dogs for depression! Are you doing talk-therapy and cognitive behavior therapy? <==CBT has been very good for me.

I hope to make some fun posts late tomorrow night or Saturday, but I don't really have any upbeat "news", per se. Crazy Russian drivers, yes! hee And I had a good day today and I'm feeling grateful for it.

Take heart. And find a friend close-by for support. I'm sorry it's so challenging. Be well and do your best, which includes being kind to yourself. Go easy, and smile when you can. I'm thinking of you. ♥

[days-unfolding.livejournal.com]

Whoops, never responded to this. A psychiatric service dog can help to wake you up if you're groggy because of the meds (besides getting up for work, I worry if the tornado siren might go off and I'll sleep through it), remind you to take your meds, help keep you grounded and a bunch of other stuff. They also are especially useful for people with panic attacks or PTSD (which I don't have). As for therapy, I don't have regular therapy appointments. I do meet with a counselor every few weeks to see how my treatment by the doctor is going. (Damn cheap insurance....) I found some therapists in Bloomington that interest me ("existential therapists"), but they don't take my insurance. Sigh.

Thanks for thinking of me....