Crash and Burn
Oct. 4th, 2014 02:25 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
days_unfoldingI've been having problems with headaches and shakiness when I take my second antidepressant (generic of Effexor). So I talked to the doctor, and she cut back on my dose of the med. Well. Between the lower dose of the med and the gloomy weather that we've been having, I was massively depressed by Friday. Trouble concentrating, trouble with motivation, fighting tears, suicidal thoughts, the whole lovely package. I call it my "refrigerator-staring mood" because that's what I do a lot of--sit in the kitchen and stare at the refrigerator. I called my doctor and asked to increase the dose of the med to what I had been taking.
The only thing was that I had planned to go to a Meetup gathering this morning, but I didn't want to go and make a first impression of a really depressed person. I wound up canceling and posting a falsely upbeat message telling them that I was sick (and I was). In the peculiar logic of depression, that made me feel even more like a loser, but I think that was the right decision.
I took the increased dose of the med this morning, and it seems to be helping to some extent. (I never have been so glad to get a headache.) Right now, I'm eating lunch and trying to do some work for my Younique business. I ran an ad on Facebook this week for my Younique Facebook page. It was supposed to run for two days, but Facebook changed my settings and scheduled it for a week, plus showed it to both women and men rather than just women as I requested. Le sigh. When I realized that the ad was still running on Friday, I canceled it, but at that point, I had 222 likes on my Younique page. I'm still getting some likes now, so some people must be sharing the page. Now if I can only convert that interest into sales....
The only thing was that I had planned to go to a Meetup gathering this morning, but I didn't want to go and make a first impression of a really depressed person. I wound up canceling and posting a falsely upbeat message telling them that I was sick (and I was). In the peculiar logic of depression, that made me feel even more like a loser, but I think that was the right decision.
I took the increased dose of the med this morning, and it seems to be helping to some extent. (I never have been so glad to get a headache.) Right now, I'm eating lunch and trying to do some work for my Younique business. I ran an ad on Facebook this week for my Younique Facebook page. It was supposed to run for two days, but Facebook changed my settings and scheduled it for a week, plus showed it to both women and men rather than just women as I requested. Le sigh. When I realized that the ad was still running on Friday, I canceled it, but at that point, I had 222 likes on my Younique page. I'm still getting some likes now, so some people must be sharing the page. Now if I can only convert that interest into sales....
