Winding down
Aug. 23rd, 2001 10:17 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
days_unfoldingThey say that you should do that for which you have infinite patience. Well, after fixing and fixing and fixing the book, it's out for review. w00t!
Had an appointment with the med doctor at the bright and shining hour of 8:30 A.M. He thinks that the side effects that have stopped shouldn't come back. (He's also pleased that the drug seems to be working, as am I.) Over the last few nights, I've developed insomnia, so he prescribed another drug to help me sleep. I'm leery of this multiple drug stuff, so I'm going to try to avoid taking it, if possible. (One thing that I really like about him, though, is that he describes the different drugs and their effects, and gives me input into the decision on which to take.)
We also had a long talk about the fact that I'm getting no help at Kaiser that's specifically for my OCD. He said that the guy who insisted that I didn't have OCD was a more diplomatic version of clueless, and that he was frustrated with the lack of care that a lot of his OCD patients were getting. He offered me referrals to therapists who specialize in OCD outside of Kaiser, and I said that I'd prefer to take their OCD class first and see if it helps me. (After all, I've already paid for it.) He offered to book me into the class even though he would get in trouble for it, but I told him that I planned to talk to my case manager about it. He told me to ask her to book me into the class, and if she refused, to contact him and he'd book me.
I really, really like him. I wish he was my therapist rather than a consultant, but medication is his role.
Anyway, between staying at work really late, running home afterwards because I forgot something (I stayed at a motel near Kaiser and work), insomnia, and getting up early, I got almost no sleep. I left work in the early afternoon and crashed for a few hours. I plan to run to the grocery store, do a few things for work, and then crash again.
Oh yeah, I looked at the Celtic Astrology link that![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
zhaneel posted, and I'm a chestnut tree:
It sounds fairly accurate.
I also took the Color test that's been floating around, and wound up with a solid blue result. It also sounded accurate.
Blues Are Motivated By Altruism
Blues love to do nice things for others. They look for opportunities to give up something in order to bring another person happiness. Selflessness, rather than selfishness, is their guiding philosophy. Many Blues are uncomfortable doing things solely for themselves. They hold doors open for people, offer rides when someone's car breaks down, contribute to charities, even devote their entire lives to helping others.
Blues Seek Intimacy
More than anything else, Blues want to love and be loved. A true Blue will sacrifice a successful career to improve an important relationship. Once considered solely a female characteristic, this nurturing is more accurately understood as a Blue personality trait.
Blues Crave Being Understood
Blues are gratified when they are listened to, when they feel understood and appreciated. They are notorious for revealing their inadequacies, because they value being known and understood so much. In the eye of a Blue, being vulnerable is a small price to pay for the chance to connect emotionally. Blues may have their hearts broken more than most people, but they also spend much more time in love.
Blues Need To Be Remembered And Appreciated
With Blues, a simple pat on the back will not suffice. Blues expend such great effort in making the world a better place that sometimes they need to be told how wonderful they are. They need to be thanked and specifically remembered for their good deeds. They need sincere gratitude. They delight in being remembered on birthdays and other special days, especially if the rememberance is personal - a homemade anniversary card, a welcome home party, a special day that isn't on the calender. Blues need tender loving care.
Blues Are Directed By A Strong Moral Conscience
Blues are motivated to behave in a proper, appropriate manner. They have a moral code that guides them in their decision making, their value judgements, even their leisure time. Blues enjoy being "good." Of all the personality colors, Blues come equipped with the strongest sense of integrity. A Blue would rather lose that cheat. Blues are trustworthy. Ethically, Blues are the people who should be in positions of power, but seldom are.
Had an appointment with the med doctor at the bright and shining hour of 8:30 A.M. He thinks that the side effects that have stopped shouldn't come back. (He's also pleased that the drug seems to be working, as am I.) Over the last few nights, I've developed insomnia, so he prescribed another drug to help me sleep. I'm leery of this multiple drug stuff, so I'm going to try to avoid taking it, if possible. (One thing that I really like about him, though, is that he describes the different drugs and their effects, and gives me input into the decision on which to take.)
We also had a long talk about the fact that I'm getting no help at Kaiser that's specifically for my OCD. He said that the guy who insisted that I didn't have OCD was a more diplomatic version of clueless, and that he was frustrated with the lack of care that a lot of his OCD patients were getting. He offered me referrals to therapists who specialize in OCD outside of Kaiser, and I said that I'd prefer to take their OCD class first and see if it helps me. (After all, I've already paid for it.) He offered to book me into the class even though he would get in trouble for it, but I told him that I planned to talk to my case manager about it. He told me to ask her to book me into the class, and if she refused, to contact him and he'd book me.
I really, really like him. I wish he was my therapist rather than a consultant, but medication is his role.
Anyway, between staying at work really late, running home afterwards because I forgot something (I stayed at a motel near Kaiser and work), insomnia, and getting up early, I got almost no sleep. I left work in the early afternoon and crashed for a few hours. I plan to run to the grocery store, do a few things for work, and then crash again.
Oh yeah, I looked at the Celtic Astrology link that
zhaneel posted, and I'm a chestnut tree:CHESTNUT TREE (Honesty) - of unusual beauty, does not want to impress, well-developed sense of justice, vivacious, interested, a born diplomat, but irritates easily and sensitive in company, often due to a lack of self confidence, acts sometimes superior, feels not understood, loves only once, has difficulties in finding a partner.
It sounds fairly accurate.
I also took the Color test that's been floating around, and wound up with a solid blue result. It also sounded accurate.
Blues Are Motivated By Altruism
Blues love to do nice things for others. They look for opportunities to give up something in order to bring another person happiness. Selflessness, rather than selfishness, is their guiding philosophy. Many Blues are uncomfortable doing things solely for themselves. They hold doors open for people, offer rides when someone's car breaks down, contribute to charities, even devote their entire lives to helping others.
Blues Seek Intimacy
More than anything else, Blues want to love and be loved. A true Blue will sacrifice a successful career to improve an important relationship. Once considered solely a female characteristic, this nurturing is more accurately understood as a Blue personality trait.
Blues Crave Being Understood
Blues are gratified when they are listened to, when they feel understood and appreciated. They are notorious for revealing their inadequacies, because they value being known and understood so much. In the eye of a Blue, being vulnerable is a small price to pay for the chance to connect emotionally. Blues may have their hearts broken more than most people, but they also spend much more time in love.
Blues Need To Be Remembered And Appreciated
With Blues, a simple pat on the back will not suffice. Blues expend such great effort in making the world a better place that sometimes they need to be told how wonderful they are. They need to be thanked and specifically remembered for their good deeds. They need sincere gratitude. They delight in being remembered on birthdays and other special days, especially if the rememberance is personal - a homemade anniversary card, a welcome home party, a special day that isn't on the calender. Blues need tender loving care.
Blues Are Directed By A Strong Moral Conscience
Blues are motivated to behave in a proper, appropriate manner. They have a moral code that guides them in their decision making, their value judgements, even their leisure time. Blues enjoy being "good." Of all the personality colors, Blues come equipped with the strongest sense of integrity. A Blue would rather lose that cheat. Blues are trustworthy. Ethically, Blues are the people who should be in positions of power, but seldom are.
