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The painter guy is here. It was weird taking a shower with thumping noises coming from outside. Zara disapproves. No sign of the power washer yet. He's here and is doing the gutters first. He's dumping gutter debris on the ground, so I'm wondering if I’ll need a TaskRabbit guy to clean up.

Talked to the painter guy (who is the same handyman whom I used for interior repairs), and he said that the real estate agent is trying to track the roofer down. Some screens need to be replaced and a window pane too. He suggested painting the basement at the end when he paints the rest of the house. The gutter guy is coming back tomorrow to finish the power washing.

Oh ugh. I took a nap at lunch and overslept. Sigh. Woke up feeling shaky cold. I'm feeling kind of depressed.

Received a message that I needed to preview my Daily Look box. I sent them an email because I delayed shipment of the box because I'll be out of town. I can say right now that I didn't like most of the stuff in it. It might be time to cancel.

Forgot to mention the other day that I started to look into what I can do for Thanksgiving dinner. It look like I can get food from Boston Market. I've already decided that Thanksgiving day, I will sort through my mom's jewelry, of which there is a ton. But I will sleep in first.

Attended a webinar about talking about your mental health conditions, but it wasn't very helpful. I wanted more information about disclosing at work, which they didn't touch on.

Zara didn't finish her food earlier. I rescued it from Mimi (who was disgruntled) and put it on the table. Zara has taken to sleeping under a wingback chair in the dining room She just reemerged, so I gave her the food.

I was the only student in my Dare to Dream class. It ended early. We’re working on a vision board, which I have started, and vision statement. I had dinner and I’m trying to figure out what to do. Put clothes in the dryer. Do dishes. Pack, I think. Okay, I have a good cut at my vision board.

I think that it's going to be an early night because I need to get up early and take pictures for my photography lesson. And ugh, I couldn't find my memory card reader, so I ordered one for overnight delivery.

I skipped piano class on Tuesday because I was really tired. Took a nap and slept through until morning. Was confused about what day it was when I woke up. Overslept my alarm, but got to work on time. Gave Zara less food because she's eating less, and she ate it with gusto. Now she wants more food. Yay. She ate it!

Mower guy has responded now, and I'm on his list. It says something about how my mind works that I thought that I offended him somehow and that's why he wasn't responding. Nope, he's just swamped. He mowed this afternoon.

I attended a good webinar about invisible disabilities. It was sponsored by the University of Central Florida, which has a good speaker series. It's making me think more about accommodations. Also, how I can get to sleep earlier and get up earlier. I'm going to take my nighttime meds earlier, and I bought a new "Sonic Boom" alarm with a bed shaker.

Now it's raining, so I'm glad that mower guy finished the lawn.

Zara chowed down on her dinner and ate about half of it. It looks like she should get a half-can of food morning, noon, and night. That's a little less than she had been getting, but still a decent amount.

Swapped out my work laptop for my personal laptop for my therapy meeting. Kind of a pain, but I have it set up for my language lessons as well. I think that I'm going to store it in my travel backpack for the time being instead of setting it up on the piano. I can set it up on the piano for piano class only. Life will be much simpler when I have my new laptop, monitor, and desk. Oh! My first therapy appointment is August 3rd, not today! Oops! Better to be too early than too late. And I have things set up.

I was playing the Joni Mitchell YouTube videos, and I discovered Brandi Carlile. I hadn't heard her before. I just bought her latest two CDs.

I had a revelation the other day. My hot water is out, and I need to clean up before I contact the complex management about it. So I'm been taking cold showers. It's unpleasant, but survivable. And it occurred to me that if I can do that, I can do the unpleasant work of getting this place together (although that would take more work than a 10-minute shower :)). Speaking of which, I need to go make a salad and clean.

I read an article about the Mega Millions lottery drawing and bought a ticket. I'm not holding my breath that I'll win, but what the hey. I think that's the first lottery ticket that I ever bought. A large enough prize to pay for my move would be nice.

The salad is made and in the fridge. I took my nighttime meds, a little later than I intended, but still a lot earlier than usual. I think that I'll start my nighttime tasks (done) and reading the news to get myself in bed earlier.

I ordered an anxiety workbook. Because boy, do I need it.

My potential therapist got back to me, and apparently it's going to cost me twice as much for therapy as I thought. Bummer. I could afford a few months (around six) though. Sometimes I feel like a bottomless money pit.

I was looking for a recipe to use up more basil, and found Basil-Lemon Chicken. That will enable me to use up more chicken too! And it sounds good. I've got chicken breasts thawing in the refrigerator. And I've added ingredients to my shopping list.

I want to make banana bread in my bread maker. I've got butter and eggs warming to room temperature.

I have a real taste for a Garlic Burger from Steak and Shake. I want to stay here while the banana bread bakes though, so I'm going to Door Dash it.

Got the banana bread going. Well, hell, Steak and Shake is closed. So I ordered a Frisco Burger from Hardee's. The Door Dash person had some problems with finding the place. The burger was pretty good.

The banana bread didn't work out so well. The bread mixer didn't mix it up very well. When I took it out, I first put it on a plate. Then I tried to flip it over onto a wire rack, and it completely fell apart. The part that I ate tasted pretty good, however.

Now I'm waiting for my laundry to finish. I need to clean up the kitchen too.

I went to talk to the staff at my old workplace. It was great talking to them, and they seemed resigned to being laid-off. My former boss has some irons in the fire.

I took an assessment for an online mental-health tool, and have most of the symptoms of depression and anxiety. Sigh. I'll see if the program helps. They also have an app, which I've downloaded.

Took a nap and slept through until morning. Woke up at 4 AM. It seems to be a clean sweep this week. The only thing that I don't like about sleeping so long is that my eyes get puffy. The girls were climbing on me and near me. Zara understands the word "eat". I asked her if she wanted to eat, and she went into the kitchen. Ugh. Mimi had to pee in the spot for the litter box that I'm soaking, even though there is a litter box next to it. I rinsed out the litter box to get it more toward putting it back.

Being up early is good. I'll feed the girls and eat, and then go to sleep for a little while. Then I'll get up and clean the kitchen. Oh, and go through books at the storage place.

I got the scrubbing bar of the floor scrubber off and washed it. It was easy to remove. Some nice design went into the scrubber.

I tried doing a Tarot reading, but the cards weren't mixed up enough. At least, I'm learning the cards. Tried another reading after mixing the cards up more. I asked about getting the place in order and the cards were basically saying that I'm in limbo, which has been true up to this point, and will stay that way. I don't like that. It wasn't a loss though because it's getting me thinking what I could do to break the stalemate and get more energy. I'd probably feel better once the place is in order.

Hmm. I thought of a slightly alternate version: home is important to me, but I don't know what to do with it. My emotions are mixed up in it somehow. After reading some of the Tarot book, it might be saying that I'm not making the choice to improve things, which is true.

Got up at a more reasonable hour and fed myself and the girls. Mulling over what to do today. I think that I'll start cleaning and organizing the master bathroom and the bedroom because I need to get the FitDesk into the bedroom to assemble it.

Put the scrubber bar outside in the hope that it would dry faster.

Number one on the get more energy project is take my morning meds. I even have a reminder on my phone and still manage to forget them. Maybe a note on the table? Coffee would also help.

Had a lot longer nap than I had planned, almost four hours. I must have energy now. Zara certainly does. She's having her afternoon zoomies.

OMG. A cloth mask that I ordered over a month ago has just shipped. I was assuming that I got ripped off, but couldn't remember from where I had ordered it. I don't really need it now, but it has cats on it and is fun.

A friend on Facebook posted an article that said that half of the people staying home has symptoms of depression, and it was worse for people with existing mental illness, like me. That would explain why I'm not getting stuff done around here. Plus, I don't have a deadline.

Had a bite to eat and some coffee.

Oh hot damn. Heartland Community College is moving its fall classes online. Definitely need to enroll. Calculus and the Computer Science classes that I need to take are not on the schedule, but they seem to be rebuilding the schedule.

Threw some jeans on and watered the outdoor plants, got my mail, and brought in two jugs of kitty litter. My back is spasming from carrying the litter. Zara wants snuggles, which is way more important than cleaning. And now she went away.

Went to see if I could plant the beets in a grow bag, but I'm going to need a lot more dirt.

Put a litter box on to soak. Threw some blankets and towels in the wash. Started cleaning up the bedroom. Took a break to sing Simon and Garfunkel ("America"). It must be Simon and Garfunkel day on Pandora because they later played "Scarborough Fair Canticle," which I also sang. It's the first time that I realized that the counterpoint was an antiwar song. I never listened closely to it before.

Got the bedroom picked up and ready for Eufy, except that I need to get the electrical cords off of the floor.

Talked to Mom. She's doing well and is working hard on the garden. We both agree that our lives are pretty boring, although we managed to get an almost 1.5 hours call out of it. She'd like to set up a Skype call with me.

I'm trying to decide whether to run Eufy now or wait until the morning. I'm feeling tired, but not sleepy. I could work on my econ class online. I also should start reviewing math with an eye to taking Calculus in the fall.