Crash and Burn

I've been having problems with headaches and shakiness when I take my second antidepressant (generic of Effexor). So I talked to the doctor, and she cut back on my dose of the med. Well. Between the lower dose of the med and the gloomy weather that we've been having, I was massively depressed by Friday. Trouble concentrating, trouble with motivation, fighting tears, suicidal thoughts, the whole lovely package. I call it my "refrigerator-staring mood" because that's what I do a lot of--sit in the kitchen and stare at the refrigerator. I called my doctor and asked to increase the dose of the med to what I had been taking.

The only thing was that I had planned to go to a Meetup gathering this morning, but I didn't want to go and make a first impression of a really depressed person. I wound up canceling and posting a falsely upbeat message telling them that I was sick (and I was). In the peculiar logic of depression, that made me feel even more like a loser, but I think that was the right decision.

I took the increased dose of the med this morning, and it seems to be helping to some extent. (I never have been so glad to get a headache.) Right now, I'm eating lunch and trying to do some work for my Younique business. I ran an ad on Facebook this week for my Younique Facebook page. It was supposed to run for two days, but Facebook changed my settings and scheduled it for a week, plus showed it to both women and men rather than just women as I requested. Le sigh. When I realized that the ad was still running on Friday, I canceled it, but at that point, I had 222 likes on my Younique page. I'm still getting some likes now, so some people must be sharing the page. Now if I can only convert that interest into sales....

Outdoor Plants

It's time to make some decisions about the outdoor plants. It's supposed to drop to 35 degrees F tonight, so I need to throw plastic drop cloths over them before I go to sleep. But that's just a temporary measure. I need to stop at Lowe's and get metal shelves for the plants that I'm going to bring in and some small pots. I need to order a couple of grow lights. I need a trash can to put dirt into so that I can add some more compost to it and reuse it next year. It's time to bring in the bougainvillea.

I had been pondering what to do with the blueberry bushes. They're smaller than I had hoped that they would be at this point, although they're still growing well. However, they need cold weather in order to set berries for the next year. I've decided to buy a cold frame, fill it with dirt, wrap insulation around the outside (bubble wrap), and plant the blueberries in there. That way, they'll get the cold that they need, but will be protected from the worst of an Illinois winter. I'll be getting some expensive blueberries from them, but I also grow the plants for my enjoyment.

Added: I found a "mini-greenhouse" with shelves and a plastic cover that will work for the herbs that I bring indoors. (I want the plastic cover to keep Harlee out of the plants after I move to Lincoln.) I'm having a tougher time finding a grow frame that I want because I want one with a bottom so that I can put dirt in it. Anyone have any ideas how I could do that?